We Are Human.

It has been quite some time since my last post and I regretfully apologize for slacking. Though, I would love to say that I have been extremely busy and at a loss for free time, that is not the case. The loss here would be the unsettling lack of creativity in my life or furthermore, the struggle to think deeply about subjects or events that normally would capture my imagination. I have finally reappeared and as sit here in my dark hallway, The Kooks in the background playing softly, I am ready to write until I cannot think of anything else uplifting to write about. So here it goes...the other night as I lay in bed worrying about useless things, a thought captured my mind. Now, this happens quite frequently due to my insomnia, which I will quickly accredit to my mother. Though this is an annoying common occurrence, at times it heightens my thoughts, thoughts so clear I find myself running for the closest pen and pad of paper. I began thinking about mistakes. I've felt more recently that this topic is one that is very abundant in my life and the life of others closest to me. What is it about mistakes that make us feel so defeated? Yes, we fail sometimes. We make bad choices. We hurt others and ourselves. But we are human, doesn't anybody see that? As I began digging deeper into my thoughts, one struck me harder than any slap on the wrist, law-breaking fine, or hurtful word ever could. Were these mistakes supposed to happen? Now, for those of you that are uncomfortable with spirituality, you might want to quit reading this right now, matter of fact maybe you just shouldn't read any of my blog posts. I will always attribute anything miraculous and life changing to the spiritually gifted- in whatever form that may come. Anyway, back to what I was saying...are these mistakes things someone planned for us? Do they lead us down the path we were intended to walk? Or vice versa? Did we learn from our mistakes or push them further into our minds to be forgotten? Now, you can form your own opinions about these questions. In fact, I encourage you to do so. However, I've come to the conclusion that yes, these mistakes were created far before we were ever born. Our life was beautifully crafted with ups and downs, mistakes and triumphs, love and heartache and every one of these only leads us to who we were created to be-someone different from everyone else. If we choose to act cowardly and run away from our mistakes, shoving them in the back of our memory bank and hoping to forget about the cringing choices we once made, where does that put us on our path? On a completely different one, one that will not lead us to become the individual God created. The point of mistakes was not to defeat us, take the wind out of our sails or make us hit rock bottom. It was meant to challenge us, push us into a realm of instability, and force us to grow as individuals. What would life be without pain or sorrow? Change or growth? Success or failure? It wouldn't be life at all, just a ferris wheel going round and round, same scenery, same rise and fall, same passengers. So are you going to remain on the ride that never climaxes, one that never makes you so scared you feel weak in your knees, a ride that fails to change direction quickly making you sick to your stomach; or are you going to jump off. Jump into the unknown fairground called life. This fairground that offers you rides you've never been on, people you've never met, and experiences that could potentially change your life. Submission doesn't make us weak, being a coward does. So accept your failures, turn them into something positive and live your life with a smile on your face. Far too often we focus our attention on the past, a glance back every once in a while only reminds us where we've been and where we want to go. Living in the past however, only hinders our future. Mistakes do not break you, they make you who you are. Remind yourself of that whenever you find yourself dwelling and remember you are human.